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Just a Little Spice

Wake up. Eat. Gym. Shower. Work. Eat. Read. Sleep.

Repeat.

Throughout the week life can become monotonous and predictable. Routine. Days blend into one another as each day is filled with the same activities. Within this routine, we’ve created for ourselves a sense of comfort and control. We’ve become creatures of habit, where we no longer have to think about what we do. We’ve done the same thing for so long that it has become ingrained in our system, coming naturally to us. This security we cling to could be partially due to our fear of the unknown or it could be attributed to a lack of creativity, even laziness. Are we stuck in our routine by default? Unable or unwilling to push ourselves outside of our comfort zone?

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Routine does make sense though, especially when it comes to managing our limited time productively and efficiently. However, routine and planning have their time and place. Born the oldest child, I have always been the practical one, the responsible one, the planner. Always taught to be prepared and to anticipate needs in order to avoid awkward situations. Yet more often than not, I find that I take life too seriously. Through this routine I adhere to, I have created limitations for myself without even realizing it. But life is too short to live the same day over again every time I wake up. Naturally I will fulfill my obligations, but I want to stop thinking so much and do something crazy. I want to break the mold that I have created for myself of who I think I’m supposed to be.

I want to be spontaneous.

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I want to put aside my logical serious side and say, “Why not?” To experience that moment when, instead of brushing aside that crazy notion, I actually do it. To have the audacity to drop my planner for a day and go wherever my feet take me. To travel on a whim and experience life outside of my carefully planned box. To break down my fear of the unknown and wanting to control everything.

I don’t want to merely exist, I want to truly live.

Spontaneity adds that spice back into life, flavoring our most average days with zest. Sparking our creativity, spontaneity inspires us to break report in turn fueling our adventurous side. This freedom is exhilarating and tends to defy both social norms as well as the norms we’ve created for ourselves.

By no means does spontaneity have to be grand, but by adding that random inspiration to a relatively predictable day can be the highlight of your day. Maybe by adding spontaneity inducing practices into your life, you will be able to experience things you never would’ve experienced had you been doing your regular routine. Like anything, the key is to start small. At your favorite restaurant, order something other than your usual. Drive a different way to work. Take a walk without a destination. Try cooking a new recipe. Wear something completely ridiculous. Hang out with a friend you haven’t seen in awhile. Sign up for a random class.

Take chances

Don’t let yourself get stuck in a routine that limits your potential for creativity and adventure. When was the last time you did anything truly spontaneous?  Spice up your life! Be spontaneous 🙂

 


I AM IRON MAN

You know that moment when you get that idea. You know it’s crazy; it’s nothing but a pipe dream. But then you think to yourself, why not? Why not me?

So you push yourself. Physically, mentally, and emotionally to achieve this dream you have within your heart. You research all the ins and outs to determine your actions steps to get you to where you want to be. You try things you’ve never done before all to prepare for that day.

Today. That day you’ve been planning for months and months. It’s not just a dream anymore; it’s within your grasp and you want it.

Nervous energy courses through your veins, dulled by the spark of confidence radiating from your eyes. That glimmer of hope shining through, small, yet palpable. You’re a dreamer and today your dreams will come true.

You look in the mirror and feel beautiful, ready to take on the world. So you go, you perform, and you give it all you’ve got. Your smile lights the room as you do what you’ve prepared months to do.

And then you wait for the results… did you make the team? Did you get the part? Your beating heart creates the back beat for the song that is your thoughts. The results go up and with bated breath you look. You’re sure you made it, but your number isn’t there. You look again, maybe you just didn’t see it the first time… but you didn’t make it.

After all those months of planning, all that time and energy practicing, and the hope you held in those bright blue eyes.

At first it doesn’t seem real, but as reality sinks in the tears begin to fall. You tried so hard! What went wrong? Did you not have the right “look” or was it your performance that was lacking? Maybe it was just tough competition.

Even so, your world feels as if it’s crashing in on itself. All those who supported you try to be comforting, “At least you tried” or “There’s always next year,” but you just want to be alone…

And that’s where I sit now… alone, yet surrounded by people. Just a face in the crowd. I close my eyes and let the sound of the waves calm me, the sun warm my face, and the wind to dry my tears as I reflect on my past and look to the future.

Despite my failure and disappointment, this journey pushed me out of my comfort zone. I defied the box people put me in, I choreographed my own dance routine, and I met some amazing and beautiful women along the way.

Failure is hard though. I’ve failed so many times, but I get back up and that is where true strength lies. “Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us.” (Romans 5:3-5a). In spite of my suffering and failure, I know that it shapes me into a stronger person and with that in mind, hope spurs me on.

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Someone I really respect once shared a story with me that, though simple, is quite powerful. After a major disappointment, he was sitting in the back of a movie theater watching Iron Man 3. At the very end of the film Iron Man says, “You can take away my suits, you can take away my home, but there’s one thing you can never take away from me: I am Iron Man.” This resonated strongly with him and with me in turn, becoming my new mantra. They can take everything away, but I will keep on dancing, I will continue dreaming big. I am Iron Man!

iron-man

So as I sit by the waterfront and when the cloud covers the sun, I won’t let my failure determine my future. I will continue to dream bigger and push myself. I am my greatest asset. I am Iron Man.